Inevitable is the path of certain events, much like the orbits of stars high above. For many who try to rein in what is set to occur, more often than not they end up realising one of two things. One, the outcome is worse than what should have been. Two, the effort just does not justify the ends.
What am I talking about, you may wonder? Loss. That is what I’m talking about; the loss of close friends and the loss of loved ones, to be more specific.
How ironic it is that in the month of September 11th I am faced with the true understanding of this word loss. Where shall we begin then? Let’s start off with Elden’s leaving.
The whole of this afternoon I set off on a pilgrimage to find a mc of 3 days in order that I may be there by his side as his waves goodbye to this place of many memories. Yet, I was unable to do so. Sadly, it is at times like this where my inability to lie (convincingly) is a bane to my soul.
And so, with a heavy heart, I made a call to him to tell him the bad news. I’m so glad he is so understanding. As he wished me to take care and uttered the word “Goodbye”, I couldn’t restrain the tears from welling up in my glands and I wished him the same in his endeavours and uttered that very same word. Embodied within that word was the beautiful friendship we shared over the last 3 years, its very essence held the nostalgic memories we shared, both good and bad. Well, hardly bad, for he was such a great friend. Yet embodied within that word was also the regretful revelation that life in the future would be spent without him. The past and the future, that was the significance of the word so difficult to say in this present.
I must say that in our last celebration, Elden said something that really resonated with me and helped me to accept our parting. “Too often people focus on the goodbyes, never remembering the in-betweens”. How true, how true. We have had such wonderful in-betweens in our 3 years of friendship, and now that you are leaving, I really want to remember these, not only our last parting days, important as they may be.
Last night was epic Elden, for me to describe the ineffable in words would put it to shame. Enough it is to know that it is safely burned into the very core of my memories so that I will never forget. Perhaps it was the poignancy of your departure that accentuated it. Whatever. It was awesome, that’s all there is to recall.
Accentuate. This was one of my favourite words, and I remember that you once told me one of your favourite words was obfuscate. Such are simple yet vital memories that shall remain embedded within my heart, awaiting to be awakened when we one day reunion.
Enjoy your great life ahead, and take care, Elden.
